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the AtMoSpHeRe
Bandung, 18August2006

I got the bricks.

I just feel that I am the boy who wrote the letter right now. Thanks for the brick, God! I am fixing myself from now on.

Waiting For The Brick?!!

I just read this story and found it really inspiring. It is kind of suitable for my situation (or perhaps, yours?). Check it out!!

A young and successful executive was traveling down a neighborhood street, going a bit too fast in his new Jaguar. He was watching for kids darting out from between parked cars and slowed down when he thought he saw something. As his car passed, no children appeared. Instead, a brick smashed into the Jag's side door! He slammed on the brakes and drove the Jag back to the spot where the brick had been thrown. The angry driver then jumped out of the car, grabbed the nearest kid and pushed him up against a parked car, shouting, "What was that all about and who are you? Just what the heck are you doing? That's a new car and that brick you threw is going to cost a lot of money. Why did you do it?" The young boy was apologetic. "Please mister ... please, I'm sorry... I didn't know what else to do," he pleaded. “I threw the brick because no one else would stop..."

With tears dripping down his face and off his chin, the youth pointed to a spot just around a parked car. "It's my brother," he said. "He rolled off the curb and fell out of his wheelchair and I can't lift him up."

Now sobbing, the boy asked the stunned executive, "Would you please help me get him back into his wheelchair? He's hurt and he's too heavy for me." Moved beyond words, the driver tried to swallow the rapidly swelling lump in his throat. He hurriedly lifted the handicapped boy back into the wheelchair, then took out his fancy handkerchief and dabbed at the fresh scrapes and cuts. A quick look told him everything was going to be okay.

"Thank you and May God bless you," the grateful child told the stranger.
Too shook up for words, the man simply watched the little boy push his wheelchair-bound brother down the sidewalk toward their home. It was a long, slow walk back to the Jaguar. The damage was very noticeable, but the driver never bothered to repair the dented side door. He kept the dent there to remind him of this message: Don't go through life so fast that someone has to throw a brick at you to get your attention!

God whispers in our souls and speaks to our hearts. Sometimes when we don't have time to listen, He has to throw a brick at us.

Fellow readers, I don’t know whether you are being thrown bricks for darting or not. But we do, sometimes. We start ignoring people around us while we are enjoying pursuit of our dreams. Perhaps, we are too busy cope problems. But, is it wrong if I am getting my dreams, even though I have to ignore others? Since, if I fail, I will not get life that I always wanted. I don’t know. It is just frantically post.

It's our choice: Listen to the whisper ... or wait for the brick!

Not to me, but For Me

Have you ever felt like you have tried the best and you don’t succeed? I am really sure that you know that kind of feeling. Under such condition, most of people usually start to look for something/someone to blame. It is pathetic.

Let‘s say, I have been in that situation. For example, my team had been making all efforts to be in a final basketball championship. And, we just ended up with no title at all. I just feel that it is unfair. I believe that you ever experienced it, too.

When I discussed this topic to a friend of mine, I got many point of views. Some of them said, ”We just can’t win all.” I think that this is just their rationalization or just a replacement which would make them feel better. But, sometimes, it does help, by the way.

But, point of view I like most is what my friend, Arlo, said to me. “Nothing ever happened to you, but everything did happen for you.” Actually, I am little bit confused with this quotes, at first. But it is getting clearer when Arlo gave me an illustration.

Simply said, we planned before we were going to do something. And most of them, sometimes, weren’t going as planned. Often, we are getting upset or disappointed. But, something we really don’t know is there’s always a bright side for us right there.

Let’s back to my problem up there! My team might not get a chance to play in basketball championship game, in order to remind us that there are so many things needed to be repaired, internally. Therefore, we have a chance to reflect and rebuild our ‘soul’ in the team. We might think that everything is okay, if we wouldn’t have lost.

That is what I am talking about. Final championship didn’t happen to us, but the lost did happen for us. At the end, I want to say “Cheer up. Thing may go unplanned, but something good for us do happen eventually”. Then, what to worry? You tell me.

Intermezzo Saat PPAB

Lagi ngebuka2 folder foto-foto, trus tiba sampai di gambar ini langsung keingat masa-masa indah PPAB.. Emang sesuatu yang indah untuk dikenang,,,

Ada pelantikan yang hampir batal gara2 hujan..
Ada Kico yang suru push-up anak orang abis bangun pagi..
Ada macem2lah..

Tapi yang paling ultimate, salah satunya ini..


RIKO lagi menakuti anjing2 ini dengan matanya... hahaha..

Things in My Life and How I React

A family was having breakfast in a sunny morning. This family consists of a father, a mother, a boy and a little girl. Suddenly, the little girl named Floe spilled a cup of tea on to her father’s shirt. Her Father was so angry at her. He scolded her,”I am going to have an important meeting today. And I am in a rush. I have to perform well and you have just ruined everything!!!” He was yelling at his daughter for 15 minutes. Since then, he was in a bad mood.

Then, he changed his shirt in hurry and came late to the meeting. At the meeting, he realized that he forgot to bring his files which is needed for the meeting. He left his files on the bed when he changed his attire in hurry. He was getting a notification letter from his boss because of being reckless. He became so angry and so upset. And then, he left the meeting room emotionally. When lunch time came, he suddenly realized that he also forgot to bring his wallet. It left in his this-morning-trousers’ pocket. He couldn’t buy any food to eat. He was getting more upset. He couldn’t think clearly right now. When he was on the way home, he’s so emotional. So, he drove his car very careless and he hit a woman.

On the other side, Floe was very depressed because of the incident. She felt like the guiltiest one. Then, those feeling make her get sick. And, certainly, this would be another bad news for her father.

What things can be inferred? Why did his father play a worst part of life that day? Do you think it is because of the spilled-tea on his shirt? I don’t think so.

I think it is because of the father’s reaction towards the things happened. What if he calmed himself and tried not to get upset? What if he said,” It is okay, Floe! You didn’t do that on purpose. Don’t cry. I just need to change my clothes and everything will be fine.”? What do you think would happen? The father wouldn’t have been late since he didn’t waste his time scolding his daughter. And he wouldn’t have left his files and wallet. So, he wouldn’t have either missed his lunch or got a notification letter. Further, he wouldn’t have hit a woman since he would have been driving home safely.

So, what is the point? The point is that our life mostly are not influenced by bad things happened but are really influenced by our reaction towards them. Most of the time, we choose to get angry, to feel disappointed, and, eventually, to make the wrong decision. Then, we will get the impact of our reaction, either bad result or good one. If the result is bad, we will start to complain and blame the events. We forgot the “our reaction” part. Perhaps, blaming something or someone could make everything become so easy for us. I just don’t know.

I was thinking about everything happened in life. Then, I came up with questions.

How much do they contribute to what I am right now?

Or what will I become when they did not happen?

I had no answer for those. Not until I read this. At least, I have something to say if I have to answer those questions.

Simply said, all things happened in my life contribute 10% and my reactions towards them contribute 90%. So, what action is going through your head, then?

See you at the top!