End of Year: Time of Reflection

Now, we are really at the end of the year. In a matter of days, we are going to change our habit from writing down "07" to writing down "08".He-he.

Ok. Let's just cut the crap and off to the topic, I was spending my time in front of my computer during this damn holiday. I was trying to organize my folders and data. I am putting my files into a year-based-folder and I also erased unused files in order to spare free spaces for my disk. In simple words, I have been dating with a laptop!!

As I was busy with my new date, something just came up to my mind. It's like a question that needs no answer. But I just felt that it was interesting to discuss. The question is "Why doesn’t God make life like a folder or files?” So, we can delete the life we don’t want to remember, or we just edit our life when something we dislike happens. Or we can just undo our life whenever we made a wrong decision. (If you don't understand what I meant, try to watch CLICK! It talks about "fast forwarding" life.)

The latter, actually, it’s my favorite feature. UNDO!! Yeah, it is cool, isn't it? If I had that feature in my life, I would never be afraid of making any wrong decision. Further, I just could do something wrong and then UNDO again. Ha-ha. It is very interesting. Then, I would have never heard of terms they called "REGRETS".

But actually, the following question is "Am I really need it?" Or, "What am I going to be if I had the feature in my life?” I will love the feature until I found that I would never grow up. I won't just loss regrets but I will also lose the feelings. The feeling of learning something from my mistake, the feeling of taking all the blame for someone you care about, the feeling of losing a game, or maybe the feeling of losing someone precious in my life.

Yet, those feelings have made me who I am right now. Since those made me understand how great something will be. Like, I know that it is great to be a winner, since I know how bad it feels as a loser. I know how great to have someone in your life, since I know how sad being alone in this life. See?! I am learning from what I have been through. Probably, I need none of those features in my life. I’d rather sick of all those emotions things than live a life like a zombie. UNDO is just needed for the files!!! He-he.

What I am trying to say is: At the end of the year, I have been reminded of my yesterday through those questions about folders. I always assume that life would be the same. Things live and die, grow on decay. I am wondering why I can’t just remain. Next year might be filled by sorrow or lots of joy. And there’s no certain of what will be. And you know what, uncertainties is what we cannot see.

I found there are nothing much I can mend, nothing I could undo, and nothing I could edit about my past and my future. It is all in His wonderful plan. There is nothing much I can do about my life, but lay it to His hands. Perhaps, I need to change. Perhaps, change is good for me. What I do know is I have to change into something brand new. Therefore, let Him take over me. Then, I will find my future wonderful next year. Amen.

Merry Christmas 2007 and Happy New Year 2008!!